Its funny and sad at the same time how we tend to feel guilty about having time off and having breathing space for ourselves. When i’m not working it takes me a bit of time to unwind and decompress, pretty much to re find my sense of humour, patience and more relaxed breathing. Its best done away from people and tends to work with lack of noise of most kinds, loud music being a daily staple in the exotic dance world along with endless chatter. A quiet mind better survives under pressure and stress.
Its ridiculous to feel like its essential to justify time off yet without it temper begins to flare, sarcasm begins to boil over and self censorship disappears. Its like a warning bell of what worse fallout can pop up. Physical and emotional endurance are vital things to remain in balance to stay functioning and sane in life and work. Theres no owners manual for life with the jobs we choose.
For some reason I’m eternally fascinated by Sailor Moon as a character and transformational being. She’s so iconic yet simple, elegant yet strong. Immediately recognizable in her early style yet more unknown in her later incarnations. It would be super interesting to try to create a transformational costume that encompassed her earlier power then morphed into her later strength.
I’m finding my eye of creative freedom is definitely jumping into higher gear these days. Everything from still images to short film, things are getting more solid vs the more uncertain understanding of what was possible earlier in my career. Experience is a powerful teacher as is seeing and always studying different visual resources. The developing comfort in knowing what works and what doesn’t and being more sure of going with gut instinct and taking creative risk vs playing it safe. Its a fine line but ultimately it pays for itself long term. Frightening and expensive short term but guaranteed payoff long term.
I have done several exotic showgirl contests over the last 2 years and have an interest in seeing what creative expression thats not stereotypical stripping in style can do. I come from the world of ballet and classic Hollywood films where more extreme showmanship is the name of the game. In stage performance I find myself as yet still relatively new to the full possibilities that are open to me. There seems to be more connection to circus then any other area of performance for me.
I’ve never competed exclusively for burlesque and so know nothing of any exact burlesque venues or long standing festivals besides ones like Vancouver and Edmonton that are relatively close to home. Visiting the Burlesque museums in Vegas would be amazing. Someday!
Dropped economy definitely forces priority of spending on vital and long term value items and projects. Focus on print media and short demo film is a big priority for this coming year, jumping the box into more extreme visuals and performance possibility.
More photography exploration is in order. Working with different photographers and in more challenging settings and concepts. A serious outdoor fire shoot in Yellowknife would be amazing but would absolutely require a spotter to make sure everything was sound and not about to whisk in a different flammable direction. Along with performance stills a raw promo shoot for one of my favourite locations Harleys Hardrock Saloon in Yellowknife.
Admittedly I’m utter crap at maintaining regular posting habits. Work is a large distraction and the need for a mental break from it. Also the crap habit of locking myself out of my own tech which is always brilliant. And I find it a challenge to expand on thoughts when I’m tired or distracted vs go into chill mode. Something that definitely needs working on. Also helps with non Shaw WiFi available.
One of the hardest things in us all is dealing with our own minds. Different mind sets and how we interact daily with our work and other people. Its hard to be balanced all the time and its hard to be positive all the time. A to of what happens in the world is outside of our control and we can only do our best to deal with it once it comes in our lives.
The hardest thing to do daily is be in our own heads with our fears and doubts, not trusting ourselves to be good enough to be where we want to be or become what we wish to become. The only way past it is to recognize those weaknesses, examine them and plow through them. Only then can you fully realize who you want to be and where you want to go.
The funny thing about planning new shows is what ideas to come up with. There’s using comfortable costumes that are classic go to’s for basic shows then there’s the exploration of full sequin and more intricate designs with ornate headpieces or flowing capes for more unreal entertainment visuals. The fun balance it between beautiful vs intimidating and darker concepts.
There’s a strong temptation to create a Witchking costume, a mind blowing Sailor Moon would be awesome and tricky to do as it wouldn’t be the typical basic level that is so often seen, she has several levels whenever she gains new power. So beautiful!! Yes I am a legit Sailor Moon geek, started that in 10th grade and haven’t stopped. She-Ra is a classic from childhood as well.
The real fun part is matching strong visuals with equally strong and effective music. Thats an odd skill that takes time to learn and consciously recognize what works and what doesn’t vs what is your mood of the minute.
Did a contest in Calgary and was clearly reminded of the power of full visual performance impact. Understanding the audience memory and impact of performances as drinks flow and time rolls forward is an interesting thing to understand. I totally forgot that as I walked out in the third round in the under pieces of the costume but neglecting to put on the uber Avatar headpiece. That cost points I didn’t think about until too late then it very much hit with solid understanding of final results. Lesson fully learned!! It can never be too big of a show really. The more impact the better. Always. Being lazy NEVER pays off.
Appologies, I’m not the best with updating my posts like I should be. It takes different head space to write thoughtfully then it does to chill after work. Work stress works better with chocolate then it does with creative writing. My bad.