The convenience of driving.

Practically living on buses and planes across Canada and now trickling into the US I find I am bitterly regretting not having learned how to drive around the time I was in high school. Its very much a game changer with how independent I can be with time and how much I can travel with without spending critical amounts on extra baggage costs and overweight fees.

The up side of not being my own driver is I can sleep the entire trip without the danger of driving off the road. I once was a passenger on a trip from Winnipeg to Thunder Bay and back in December and was made aware of the dangers of falling asleep at the wheel from nothing else but hypnotic snow falling and a long drive in eerie darkness. Didn’t matter being rested, the tunnel vision of darkness, the endless snow and monotony of time being suspended really threw off anyone looking at the road and made the dangers of a messy death colliding with a huge 18 wheeler from oncoming traffic very possible.

Creative attention vs detachment.

The balance between creativity and emptiness is difficult, there is only so much time to devote to high energy thoughts before a break is needed. There’s a big difference between the creativity for a new show concept and the more long lasting creativity of both still image and continual story creation.

In dance the only test is to perform it live and adjust the idea as it goes with the raw input from the audience, more 2D creations have a very limited screw up window as there is no pre publish setting. Single images area easier to work with then a fully realized book as the book must be a complete setup on its own.  I’m beginning to understand why books often take years to create vs the hrs of still images.

The tricky part of creation is getting sick of your own work when its been in your head for a while and have gone over and over it till you know it inside out. That is when its good to have outside input to make sure your idea is solid and not just an ego trip that will fall flat once released to the public.

Speaking the mind.

I’m rather infamous for being outspoken and blunt about things that fire me up. That is the only real way for striking results to be created and boundaries to be broken.  It unfortunately has the side effect of getting one repeatedly in a load of trouble for the exact same reasons.

Experience in life is the best teacher as my mum would say and she had an aggravating habit of being consistently right. Experience is the best teacher: that is the only way to learn  the depths of your mind and the capacity you have to deal with and understand the world you move within. It is up to you to learn your own levels of patience and how to deal with stress the balance you need to have within yourself to do your job well.

Prostitution recruitment.

There is an ongoing issue of random people who pop up across all bigger cities and do their best to attempt to recruit girls for their low end hooker collection. Its not nice being approached by these individuals and it chips away at ones faith in whats left of humanity. They have a habit of being from Toronto and being very indirect with how they approach the subject of working for them. Some are more smooth talking then others but the gist is basic and clear cut. Work for them and ooohhh so much money will be on the table.

Its totally fine if anyone wants to be a sex worker ON THEIR OWN TERMS AND BEING THEIR OWN BOSS but when there’s ANYONE being a knowing recruiter then thats not cool.  That should be rewarded by a nice visit to a back alley where the pimp gets their knees blown out and their hands stapled to a plank that would be secured around their neck. Crows could always use a bigger meal.

The justice system does nothing for such obscenity, same goes for repeat sexual offenders. Safety should be an issue of basic human standards. Sadly its nothing more then an issue of shuffled budget and internal politicking.

Creative excitement.

The funny thing about performing is when you master certain skills to a comfortable level and have a need to learn a totally new skill set. I have done feather fans and asian silk fans as well as hot wax and my 3 fire shows so much that I find a completely new outlet for exploration is essential. Ballet pointe is an ongoing process as I had stopped full time ballet training at a crucial point so that skill set is always in much need of practice and evolution.

Fire performance I began to do 5 years ago and is a major addiction.  It has become a quest to seek out the most unusual skills to investigate and see if I have an affinity for it or not. A lot has to do with the comfort and familiarity with certain movements and also the varying weights of the different props available. Its a delicate balance between things that are designed too light or too heavy for comfortable use. Personally I like a respectable weight so I can feel the heft of the prop but not so light that I can barely get a feel for the show.

Another tricky issue with prop purchase and testing is that most things are available via internet purchase which is great except for the fact that it eliminates the ability to test out the item and get a feel for how you like it or not. Its never good to like how something looks then have it arrive after purchase and be completely the wrong feel for use. Its something you’d have to return because discomfort with the item would kill any desire to work with it and could cause injury if it isn’t the right design.